Hey what it is? Well I had to make a new xanga...got tired of the old one lol but anyway today was well stressful, I spent some time thinking what the "hell am i doing" not sure who i want to chill with or be around it always comes down to myself...no where to go, or who to see, who i like, what i want to wear, simple decisions i find annoying its starting to piss me off. I head to burg to kick it and well everyone goes to the movies...no thanks....i go to the bowling alley sit and be bored....no thanks...chill at the house....no thanks,,, im starting to feel like a depressed emo kid with no friends and one razor blade and i whole lot of black... I have many ppl to see, many places to go, and well im in a hole. deciding what i want to do all the time still sitting at home looking at my phone. Hoping that someone calls but when they do i say well idk what i wanna do. Or ppl i used to kick it with say why dont you come around....if you called i might know you want me around. Its all just getting gay the whole im lonely shit is boring and why do ppl insist on making others feel good i hate that when i get mad or wanna do something i get pissed and ppl go its ok well if it was ok then i wouldnt focus so much on it. If any of you ever get pissed and dont know what to do...get mad and be mad let it out. This shit sucks if you ever feel like me raise your hand and follow this: i fucking hate whats going on...so im gonna change it...it works for me lmao dont take advice from me i dont know what the hell im talking about

what you have just read was a rant from ryan he does not know what the hell he is talking about he just likes to type!- Ryan Leigh yea the crazy one